Translation (from German): I am happy to approach people and get to know them. What often happens to me when someone gets too close to me, is that I become cruel and hurtful. With increasing intimacy, it becomes harder to express love, and it can quickly turn into the opposite. Thus, I expect something (love) from people, that I myself cannot give. This leads to disappointment.

Translation (from German): MHigh should get a dog. Or something. Or a cat if she would find that uglier. An pet as stupid, annoying, irritating=unlovable as possible. Then she can train herself, in  caring also for something that doesn’t deserve her love.

“I love you anyway.”

SUBLIMATION

AND IF SHE THEN ONCE IN A WHILE GIVES THE STUPID CREATURE A KICK, THAT ISN’T SUCH A BIG DEAL.

And so she will slowly learn, that one doesn’t always have to be cute to find someone offering intimacy.